Completely shocked and disgusted...

A man from this area has been charged with shaking and slamming his 4 month old, that is right 4 MONTH OLD baby boy so severely that the infant is on life support and is so brain damaged that he will be removed from life support and the organs donated.  From what I understand this is a very large man and there are indications that the infant was not the only victim of abuse in this house...  I cannot even begin to express my horror and disgust at this..If you want to see the article and video click on the blue letters at the beginning of this entry..

Almost a week

What a cute tag from Robyn at My Creative Corner,  she is very talented and one of the artists that I enjoy getting snags and tags from.  She has some awesome Halloween ones out!  You know how I love Halloween! 

Rich has been here for a week now and I have found myself falling into my old pattern of self doubt and insecurity.  He was not feeling good last night and moody and quiet and kept to himself so I automatically felt it was because he didn't care for me anymore and wanted to leave.  I got myself so worked up I got to crying.  Then I had a headache.  Sheesh.  I need to stop doing such self-destructive behavior because that type of insecurity does drive men away! 

Not much else going on.  Rich and Karl both have colds and don't feel good.  Sarah is going off her insulin pump for a while because it has not been working good for her.  I think the majority of the problem is her lack of body fat.  You need a good fatty area to put the inset needle and she has barely any on her.  She is very lean.  We have been using the same areas over and over and it is not good. 

I am due to go back to work Monday.  I am looking forward to seeing my co-workers and residents again but feel that I will have a problem keeping up for a couple days!  I am not ready for an 8 hr day!  The bills also keep rolling in and the money I do have rolls right back out!  I should get a disability check in about a week or so.  I hope so, because I need it.  By the time it comes, I should have a paycheck from Wesley again too.  I did receive a small one Wed. but I promptly used it to pay my house payment! 

I got the pleasure of talking to Dad and Mary yesterday from Dad's Tomato Garden Journal.  Link on right.  He has an outdoor webcam.  I have not had the opportunity to catch a glimpse of him yet.  He is like the elusive Yeti on the webcam!  :)

Birdfeeder action has heated up, but I don't think I will do bird cam like I wanted to.  I have a feeder right outside my kitchen window and I really enjoy watching the birds come and go during the day.  I think they feel fall coming on and are busy storing up fat reserves and hiding food for the upcoming winter.  We may have a frost tonight also!  It is hard to believe that Oct. is only 2 weeks away. 

Well, I have rambled on enough today.  Enjoy fall Y'all!

courtesy of Sugar Shack keepsakes  link on right

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A new pet

THis is not the actual pet, but one that looks similar.  Meet Cookie.  She is a Bufo Americanus.  American Toad.  She was seen hopping across the lawn last night right toward the house.  She is very large for a toad also.  We have her established in a nice aquarium with plenty of dirt and leaves to dig into and a dish of water to sit in.  She seems happy and has already eaten a cricket for dinner! 

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Learning curve

Things have been interesting around here as everyone adjusts to having new people in the house and the new people adjust to living here.  Rich has been great helping me get the house in order.  I had a yard sale yesterday and made $55.  It rained overnight however and everything I had out got soaked.  I am giving away the stuff that I don't want now.  The kids have been having a great time with Rich's son here.  He is at a great age where he is like a little brother to Travis and a playmate for Sarah. 

Money is continuing to trickle in despite the fact that I have not gotten any disability or paycheck in two weeks.  Travis got his last paycheck and I had to commendeer it to pay some bills.  I got $20 to do private duty for an hour and then the yard sale money helps.  Also getting child support still. 

There has been an issue with my kids and lack of structure but I am going to work on that.  They do need more structure.  It has pretty much been a free for all here the last two years.  Also when the house is cleaned up it needs to stay that way!  I can't be a slob anymore, or the kids for that matter! 

Wish us luck! 

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Richard

I've been putting off this entry out of fear of cursing or dooming this relationship.  But I don't think journal entries is the culprit.  Ok I met Richard about two weeks ago.  Well, we have been talking online for a few days prior, even thru my surgery and problems after.  I think I may have met "The One".  I am so afraid however to let my heart go.  He is 5 years younger than me and very good looking.  He is currently living in Albany but may move up here soon.  I know we might be rushing things, but with his situation and mine, it would be ideal.  I need extra income and he needs a place to stay with a safe and good school system for his son.  He is staying with his sister right now after leaving his son's mother.  No he is not married. 

We seem to just "click", I don't know what it is.  I am so afraid he is acting just to get me to fall for him, but if he is acting he is doing a bang up job of it.  He is affectionate, romantic, likes the kids, changed my flat tire etc...  his son and my kids get along great and all are eager to live together.  We will however be adding another dog to the mix!  So things should be interesting in this little house.  He has also mentioned the word "marriage" but not until a while from now.  We just tossed around the idea.  Maybe its all part of his "seduction" plan.  LOL!  Anyhow gonna take it slow and cautious.  He says he feels the same with me, that I seem too good to be true and he is waiting for the other shoe to drop.  Here is his picture... wish us luck!

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Birdfeeder cam

I will occasionally have a webcam set up to view the birdfeeders outside my window.  I do not have a webcam host yet so the only way to be able to view it would be to add me to your buddy list and if you see me online to ask me turn it on! It is also available thru my yahoo IM, geocachelinda.  Send me a buddy request and if you see me online there I can turn it on if its not on already!   Linda

P.S. If anyone knows a free and easy place to host a webcam could you let me know?

Happy Birthday Sarah!

Happy Birthday to Sarah today!  She is 9 today.  She had her party yesterday at her Grandmother's.  I couldn't go because of the pain and the pills but today I am going to really try to do something with her!  I might have a friend come pick us up because I don't want to drive too far.  She enjoyed her party at her Grandmother's and got some nice presents!  Linda

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