Court tomorrow

This is how I feel, like the Panda.  This photo made the rounds and people were in an outrage thinking it was real!  LOL.  No one is eating baby panda's, they are endangered.  They do look a little tasty tho, don't they?  Hehe....  Anyhow, the EX is still going gung-ho into the trial tomorrow.  He is saying his lawyer said "Talk-but don't commit".  Great.   I hope we come to an agreement.  He is still viewing it as "Losing".  I explained it isn't about winning or loosing, its what's best for Sarah.  He accuses me of "fighting", but he keeps bringing the battle to me.  I just want to get it over with.  I am not going to lay down for him, like I used to do.  I'm not his doormat anymore.  I think we need a trial period of him having unsupervised visits to let Sarah get used to the idea of spending time alone with him.  To see if he can sucessfully parent her.  I've done it alone for 8 months!  I've been away 8 months!  In that time, I bought a house, kept my kids in school, paid my bills, kept my job, put food on the table, etc... etc... etc...  but I'm still a BAD MOTHER!  In his eyes I am.  I starve my daughter, don't let her get enough sleep, let people abuse her and don't dress her properly.  What else?  Ok enough ranting.  Wish me luck everyone!