Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Confused

I am so confused and don't know what to do.  I finally broke down and called Dave to come get his things and he acted like he didn't know what I was talking about.  I guess not calling me for 3 days is ordinary, when we have talked everyday.  We concluded by deciding to take a break from each other.  I'm still going to keep my options open however.  Travis and I moved his table and chairs into the shed and now probably have to move it back!  Or else I will just go and buy a cheap yard set to use indoors.  All I use the table for anyhow is to hold junk! 

I really hate being single and I hate the dating part where you meet new people and get to know each other.  So awkward.  I feel that my weight really hold me back from things.  Men don't want a heavier gal like myself.  They all want skinny ones.  Any one that does like heavy gals are heavy themselves and I don't really feel attracted to heavy men.  A little heavy is ok, but not obese.  Its funny, I don't think of myself as "obese" but according to the weight charts, I am.  Funny, when I look at personals online I still feel as if I'm doing something wrong.  I still feel the Ex lurking behind my back.  Speaking of which, his excuse for only spending two hours with Sarah this week is because his "girlfriend" has been in the hospital with pneumonia.  I guess he has his priorities.  Wow, I'm cheerful today huh?  I got the IUD put in today and it hurt like hell.  I bit my arm trying not to scream.  I hope it works.  Its not for pregnancy protection, but for heavy periods.  Well, enough complaining.  Bye for now!

6 comments:

jckfrstross said...

i can't imagine how hard it must be to start dating again. But stick to your guns and you know what there are men out there who don't mind a few pounds on a woman. the more to love :) keeping you in prayer

Deb

nightmaremom said...

Hang in there you'll find what you're looking for.  Stay well and stay happy
hugs
d

ally123130585918 said...

I know lots of men who prefer a "Bigger" woman ~ I could imagine it would be fun meeting new people ~ You hang in there ~ Ally

jlocorriere05 said...

Sorry it's not working out with Dave, maybe it happened too fast and you both need space. Lots of men hate skinny women, A couple of guys have told me recently that they prefer a bigger woman! Someday you'll meet someone who's right for you, meanwhile have fun! It's early days yet. Jeannette xx  http://journals.aol.co.uk/jlocorriere05/Welcometomytravels/  

bhbner2him said...

One day at a time Linda.  Praying God will give you direction and that He'll place the person that is right for you in your path at the time that is right.  ;o)  -   Barbara

fowfies said...

You are braver than me. I always think, if something ever happened to Ian, heaven forbid, I would just become a hermit...lol. Live alone with all my animals and never date. I can't imagine having to get out there nowadays and date...pretty scary thought.