I am so confused and don't know what to do. I finally broke down and called Dave to come get his things and he acted like he didn't know what I was talking about. I guess not calling me for 3 days is ordinary, when we have talked everyday. We concluded by deciding to take a break from each other. I'm still going to keep my options open however. Travis and I moved his table and chairs into the shed and now probably have to move it back! Or else I will just go and buy a cheap yard set to use indoors. All I use the table for anyhow is to hold junk!
I really hate being single and I hate the dating part where you meet new people and get to know each other. So awkward. I feel that my weight really hold me back from things. Men don't want a heavier gal like myself. They all want skinny ones. Any one that does like heavy gals are heavy themselves and I don't really feel attracted to heavy men. A little heavy is ok, but not obese. Its funny, I don't think of myself as "obese" but according to the weight charts, I am. Funny, when I look at personals online I still feel as if I'm doing something wrong. I still feel the Ex lurking behind my back. Speaking of which, his excuse for only spending two hours with Sarah this week is because his "girlfriend" has been in the hospital with pneumonia. I guess he has his priorities. Wow, I'm cheerful today huh? I got the IUD put in today and it hurt like hell. I bit my arm trying not to scream. I hope it works. Its not for pregnancy protection, but for heavy periods. Well, enough complaining. Bye for now!